Ducts - for tears and milk!

Sometimes Auria won't nap unless mommy holds her and today has been one of those days. Now, understand, this not a complaint whatsoever, I love holding and snuggling with my baby girl and I'm happy to do it all day long.... it just doesn't make for the most productive of days. *Ususally I'd put her in the Moby in this situation but it's in Daddy's car and he had to work today :/

So, on these kinds of days when I can't get much done, I tend to browse the internet quite a bit. Today I was going back and reading some of my older blogs from when I was pregnant and I came across this one.

"...I wasn't asleep for very long before my alarm went off but it was just long enough for a short little dream. In this sweet little dream I saw her! I saw myself in the hospital, just a few hours after delivery, holding my beautiful, perfect, baby girl on my chest! :) :) :) She wasn't tiny, but she wasn't huge either - she was just right! She didn't have a ton of hair but she did have a nice, dark covering on her cute noggin. She was just snuggled up on my chest with her little fist tucked under her chin... it was absolutely precious! I didn't see details of her features but I remember thinking that she was the perfect combination of Josh and me..."

When I read this I couldn't help but tear up because I realized it was her! Everything about that description is exactly my Auria! I'd hoped at the time that somehow I really was getting a glimpse at my baby girl and to realize now that I did... I dunno, it just makes me emotional. Anyway, for anyone that may have read that blog I just thought I'd share that with you ;)

Okay so milk production update: It's working! I feel fuller each time she's ready to feed now so that's definitely a good sign. Also, I'm noticing more milk mess on her face when she's finished nursing, which to me says she's probably getting more than she's used to. I'm going to experiment with Auria's next feeding and just give her a bottle (of boob juice) so I can just pump and get a better idea of exactly how much more I'm making. I know it's probably only the difference of 15-30ml's (.5-1oz) but I'll take any increase I can get! I'm assuming that as I continue to take this supplement over the course of the month that my supply should continue to increase a little more and hopefully when I've finished this prescription I've established enough to sustain her appetite.

Last thing before I go - I'm hoping, by some miracle, my cd's I ordered online will arrive this afternoon! They're supposed to be here on Monday or Tuesday so I'll actually be a couple of days behind on my planned timeline, oopsie! All I can think about lately is cd's and I can't wait to get started with my experiment! :)