Cry baby

Waaaa, I DON'T WANNA GO BACK TO WORK!!!! :'(

It's not really about not wanting to work - it's that I reeeally don't want to leave my baby girl! I've had several moments in the past week when my emotions have gotten the best of me and the tears just start pouring out. I'm so not looking forward to my first week of work without my baby girl! It really breaks my heart to think about spending so many hours away from her :(

*pause for tears*

Thankfully I'll be working 3 days/week, instead of five. Still, I have got to figure out some way for us to afford for me to stay home! I waited my whole life to be a mommy & now that I am I just can't bear to only be a part-time mommy. Maaaybe once I get through the first few days I'll be one of those moms that enjoys a little time away but I don't really think that will be the case for me. I guess only time will tell and I'll find a way to deal beacuse right now I have no other choice. At least when I have to be apart from my sweet little foot, I know she'll be in the best care possible - her Oma, and her doting uncles and aunt will give her all the love and attention a baby girl could want!

Okay I have to stop thinking about it now and get back to cuddling with my baby girl!
Hopefully I'll be back soon to talk about happier things ;)